Welcome to Rebel Saint Publications
Rebel Saint Publications is the personal publishing imprint of Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—a queer nun, prophetic voice, and sacred storyteller. Every book, sermon, devotional, and guide offered here is written by Sister Abigail herself, drawing from a deep well of lived experience, radical theology, Franciscan wisdom, and fierce love for the margins.
This imprint exists to uplift the voices too often silenced: transgender Christians, disabled mystics, age regressors, herbal healers, spiritual seekers, and holy rebels. Each publication is an offering of courage and compassion, crafted to challenge systems of oppression, nurture spiritual healing, and speak truth with tenderness and fire.
Rebel Saint Publications is not a traditional publishing house. It is a sacred space where Sister Abigail’s books are made available to the world—freely and boldly. Whether you are seeking theological insight, affirming spiritual care, practical healing knowledge, or prophetic inspiration, you will find it here.
This is more than a library. It is a ministry. It is a revolution of love. And you are welcome.
Every resource here is offered freely as part of our mission to share truth and hope. If you’d like to support our work, your generosity is deeply appreciated—just follow the link below.
The Church is in ruins — and maybe that’s the holiest thing that’s happened to it in centuries.
Rebuild My Church is a prophetic, punk, and prayer-soaked call to rise from the rubble. Sister Abigail Hester, a Franciscan Clarean nun and rebel mystic, lays down a blueprint for a Church that is ecological, feminist, queer, decolonized, and poor — a Church stripped of empire and dripping with mercy.
This is no polite theology. It’s Francis and Clare with dirt under their nails and fire in their hearts — rebuilding the Gospel with compost, protest, and joy.
Here, poverty becomes resistance, queerness becomes sacrament, and creation becomes the altar again.
If you’ve ever looked at the collapsing Church and thought, maybe we can build something better, this book is your hammer.
What if God’s plan for your life isn’t a secret blueprint you have to decode — but a living path you and God create together?
For too long, Christians have been told that every detail of their lives has been pre-scripted by a cosmic micromanager. This “blueprint God” leaves people paralyzed by fear of missing their one chance at the “perfect” plan — or crushed under the weight of believing tragedy was divinely arranged.
In Not a Blueprint, But a Path, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, offers a progressive Christian alternative: a God who invites, not controls. Drawing on the wisdom of John Shelby Spong, Marcus Borg, and John Dominic Crossan, she reimagines calling as co-creation with the Divine — a sacred collaboration rooted in love, justice, and freedom.
You’ll discover:
Why the “puppet-master” view of God can harm both faith and mental health
How to align your life with God’s dream for the world — not just your own comfort
Why detours, mistakes, and chaos don’t ruin your calling
Simple practices for walking the path daily with courage and joy
If you’ve ever wondered, “What if I missed God’s will?” — this book will set you free.
The plan isn’t hiding somewhere out there. You’re living it — one step, one choice, one act of love at a time.
Beyond Male and Female: A Postgender Vision for Humanity
by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC
For centuries, humanity has been told there are only two ways to exist: as a man or as a woman. These boxes have been treated as divine decree, scientific fact, and cultural inevitability. But what if that story was never the whole truth?
In Beyond Male and Female, Sister Abigail Hester dismantles the myth of eternal gender, revealing its historical roots, colonial enforcements, and theological distortions. With prophetic clarity and compassionate depth, she draws from scripture, mysticism, science, and lived experience to imagine a society beyond the binary — one where identity, purpose, and belonging are not dictated at birth.
From ancient gender-diverse communities to saints who defied the rules, from postgender science fiction to real-world movements already living beyond labels, this book weaves a vision that is both grounded and radically hopeful. Sister Abigail challenges readers to see that the end of gender is not the end of humanity — it is the beginning of our liberation.
Whether you are a person of faith, a seeker of justice, or simply curious about what lies beyond the binary, Beyond Male and Female is a call to courage, imagination, and love without limits.
Christ Beyond Carbon: A Franciscan Posthuman Theology
By Sister Abigail Hester, OFC
What happens to Christian faith when “human” is no longer the limit of God’s family?
In Christ Beyond Carbon, Franciscan Clarean nun Sister Abigail Hester takes readers on a bold theological journey beyond the boundaries of biology, species, and planet. Drawing on the mystical vision of St. Francis, the cosmic Christology of Bonaventure, and the radical inclusion of Duns Scotus, she reimagines the Gospel for a future where AI, alien life, and genetically engineered beings stand alongside humanity.
With prophetic clarity and Franciscan tenderness, Sister Abigail explores:
The Imago Dei in flesh, code, and stardust.
The possibility of multiple Incarnations across the cosmos.
Sacraments for bodies made of silicon, crystal, or light.
Justice and poverty in a world of enhancement elites.
Mission and kinship that embrace every creature.
Part theology, part prophetic manifesto, and part love letter to all creation, this book refuses to choose between ancient faith and the strange new world ahead. Instead, it declares with Franciscan joy that Christ’s love is wider than species, bigger than biology, and destined to fill the entire cosmos.
For theologians, futurists, justice-seekers, and dreamers—Christ Beyond Carbon is a call to live, worship, and serve in a way that welcomes every possible future as holy ground
The Way of Life in a World of Death: A Prophetic Commentary on the Didache
In a time of empire, exploitation, and moral confusion, the early Christian document known as the Didache offered a bold, alternative path: the Way of Life. In this fiery and liberating commentary, Sister Abigail Hester—founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—reclaims the Didache not as a relic of the past, but as a living manifesto for justice, simplicity, and radical discipleship today.
Blending queer theology, liberation theology, Franciscan spirituality, and anti-imperial ethics, The Way of Life in a World of Death confronts the urgent issues of our time: Christian nationalism, ecological devastation, systemic poverty, white supremacy, transphobia, and more. With each chapter, Sister Abigail connects ancient teachings to the daily struggles of marginalized people, lifting up the gospel as a call to revolutionary love, communal care, and nonviolent resistance.
This commentary is not neutral. It is not academic for the sake of academia. It is prophetic, pastoral, and political. It challenges the Church to repent of its complicity in oppression and to return to the Way of Jesus—a path of humility, shared bread, sacred interdependence, and holy resistance.
Whether you are a pastor, activist, seeker, or spiritual misfit, this book invites you to walk the ancient path with fresh conviction. The Didache still speaks. The question is: will we listen?
What if the trees are your siblings, the wind is your teacher, and the Earth is your altar?
In Christian Animism: Reconnecting with the Sacred in Creation, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, invites readers into a spiritually rich, theologically grounded, and radically embodied way of experiencing God in all things. Drawing from Franciscan spirituality, Indigenous wisdom, queer theology, and liberationist thought, this book reclaims the ancient Christian truth that creation is not a commodity—it is communion.
Far from superstition or pantheism, Christian animism is a path of deep relationship: with the soil beneath your feet, the ancestors who walk beside you, the elemental spirits in wind and fire, and the Divine presence woven through every living being. Through poetic theology, spiritual practices, prayers, rituals, and prophetic reflection, Sister Abigail helps readers re-enchant their faith and re-root their discipleship in the living Earth.
Whether you’re a contemplative, a mystic, an eco-activist, a Christian witch, or a spiritual seeker at the margins, Christian Animism offers a tender and fierce invitation:
to live gently, love wildly, and belong deeply to the sacred web of life.
In a world increasingly divided by religious dogma and political fear, One Light, Many Lamps offers a radical vision of spiritual kinship rooted in humility, reverence, and holy curiosity.
Written by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—a contemplative nun, transgender theologian, and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—this prophetic and poetic book invites readers to journey through the wisdom of the world’s great religions without superiority or fear. From the stillness of Zen meditation to the joy of Hindu devotion, from the call to justice in Islam to the sacred memory of Judaism, from Indigenous reverence for Earth to the fire of the mystics—this is a pilgrimage of the heart.
With tenderness and courage, Sister Abigail explores how we can be deeply rooted in the Gospel of Jesus while honoring the divine beauty in every path. Rather than seeking conversion, she calls us to connection. Rather than defending boundaries, she builds bridges of belonging.
Through stories, prayers, reflections, and practical insights, One Light, Many Lamps is a call to peace without compromise, love without agenda, and dialogue without erasure.
This book is for:
Spiritual seekers craving interfaith friendship
Christians longing to follow Jesus without supremacy
Justice-minded readers yearning for sacred connection across lines of difference
Anyone ready to honor the Light in all its many lamps
Come to the round table. Bring your story. Stay rooted. Stay open.
We’re all just walking each other home.
In a world wracked by empire, division, and despair, what does it mean to rejoice?
Joy in the Struggle offers a fresh, provocative, and deeply pastoral commentary on Paul’s letter to the Philippians through the lens of Franciscan simplicity, queer theology, liberation spirituality, and radical love. Written by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—nun, preacher, and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—this commentary blends scholarly insight with a pastor’s heart and a prophet’s voice.
Verse by verse, Sister Abigail walks with readers through the prison epistle that pulses with joy, mutual aid, and holy resistance. Along the way, she uplifts the voices of the marginalized, challenges systems of domination, and centers the liberating power of Christ’s self-emptying love.
Perfect for seekers, scholars, clergy, activists, and mystics alike, this book invites all people—not just the privileged, not just the pious—to press on together in joy. Whether you are queer or straight, trans or cis, certain or skeptical, Joy in the Struggle welcomes you to encounter Scripture as a living, breathing source of hope and transformation.
This is not your grandmother’s monasticism. This is a barefoot revolution.
Loving Boldly, Living Simply is a prophetic invitation into the Franciscan Clarean Way—a queer, decolonial, justice-driven path of Christian spirituality rooted in the radical witness of Saint Francis and Saint Clare. Written by transgender nun and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, this book offers a bold new Rule for those hungry for faith that affirms bodies, disrupts empire, heals trauma, and builds beloved community.
Combining liberation theology, queer theology, feminist spirituality, ecological wisdom, and Franciscan mysticism, this book is part manifesto, part love letter, and part practical guide for living an embodied, unapologetically political gospel in today’s world.
Inside you’ll find:
A radical reclaiming of Francis and Clare for our time
A Rule of Life built on love, simplicity, and belonging
Chapters on trans embodiment, holy resistance, trauma-informed community, and climate justice
Rituals, prayers, daily practices, and sacred reflections
A vision for a new kind of Church—inclusive, earthy, fierce, and free
Whether you’re deconstructing, decolonizing, or rediscovering your faith, this book will guide you back to a gospel that looks like Jesus, loves like justice, and walks like peace.
Becoming Little Again is a tender, powerful exploration of trauma-based age regression as both a psychological reality and a sacred path to healing. Written by contemplative nun and trauma survivor Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, this book offers a deeply honest look into what it means to live as an involuntary age regressor—someone who returns to a younger emotional state not by choice, but through the body’s innate drive for safety, comfort, and repair.
Blending memoir, spiritual reflection, psychological insight, and practical guidance, Becoming Little Again invites readers into a world often misunderstood and stigmatized. It speaks directly to regressors navigating shame, disability, gender identity, and neurodivergence, as well as to caregivers and allies seeking to offer trauma-informed love.
With warmth, clarity, and fierce compassion, Sister Abigail affirms that regression is not childish or shameful—it is sacred. In these pages, the inner child is not hidden, silenced, or pathologized, but embraced with dignity. Through chapters on safety, embodiment, ritual, stigma, and integration, readers will discover that becoming little again is not a step backward—but a healing return to softness, self-trust, and wholeness.
Whether you are a trauma-based regressor, a caregiver, or someone curious about the depths of inner child healing, this book is a hand to hold, a voice of affirmation, and a sacred permission slip to be exactly who you are.
“You are not broken.
You are not a burden.
You are loved—thumb-sucker, bottle-drinker, blankie-holder and all.”
Forever Little is a tender, honest, and sacred invitation into the world of 24/7 age regression. Written by Sister Abigail Hester—a contemplative nun, trauma survivor, and lifelong regressor—this book offers a rare glimpse into a life lived gently, vulnerably, and fully in littleness.
Part memoir, part guidebook, part spiritual companion, Forever Little explores what it means to be a regressed person not just some of the time, but all the time. With deep compassion and unflinching truth, Sister Abigail shares her daily realities, her caregiving needs, her joys and struggles, and the faith that sustains her.
Inside you’ll find:
An in-depth look at age regression and its connection to trauma, neurodivergence, and healing
Practical guidance for caregivers and supporters
Rituals, routines, and spiritual practices for littles
Comforting affirmations and reflective journal prompts
A love letter to every little who has ever felt broken, ashamed, or alone
This is not a book of shame. This is a book of sacred softness, holy vulnerability, and radical self-acceptance.
Whether you are a regressor, a caregiver, a curious loved one, or a seeker of gentle truth, Forever Little will meet you with warmth, understanding, and an open heart.
You are not too much. You are not broken.
You are forever little—and forever loved.
The Order of Franciscan Clareans Herbal Health and Wellness Book is a bold, beautiful, and body-affirming guide to sacred healing in the spirit of St. Francis and St. Clare. Written by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—a transgender Christian nun, preacher, and herbalist—this book is a prophetic invitation to reclaim our bodies, our herbs, and our healing from the grip of empire.
Blending holistic health wisdom, liberation theology, queer spirituality, and ancient herbal practices, this book offers:
🌿 A Franciscan framework for wellness rooted in simplicity and justice
🧄 Profiles of healing herbs with theological reflections, recipes, and blessings
🛐 Daily rituals, body prayers, and anointing practices for sacred embodiment
🔥 Essays on decolonizing health, resisting wellness capitalism, and practicing community care
🍲 Practical tools for growing, preparing, and sharing herbal remedies with love and intention
From mugwort to motherwort, garlic to grief, this is not just a wellness manual—it’s a spiritual revolution. Whether you are chronically ill, newly curious about herbalism, burned out from medical systems, or longing for a healing path that honors your body and your faith, this book is for you.
Come as you are. Come rooted. Come hungry for healing that is shared, sacred, and subversive.
Becoming Franciscan Clarean: A Guide for New Companions
by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC
Radical simplicity. Fierce love. Sacred belonging.
Are you longing for a path that honors your body, your questions, your calling—and your community? Becoming Franciscan Clarean is a bold, tender, and prophetic guide for spiritual seekers, postulants, novices, and lifelong companions on the Franciscan Clarean Way.
Rooted in the lives of St. Francis and St. Clare but reimagined for our time, this formation handbook weaves together queer theology, liberation spirituality, ecological reverence, and new monastic wisdom. With rituals, readings, journaling prompts, and daily practices, this book offers more than information—it offers transformation.
Written for the misfits, mystics, and movement-builders of today, this guide reminds us: we don’t have to fit in to belong. We are already holy. We are already home.
Includes:
A complete Rule of Life for modern-day contemplative activists
Rituals for postulancy, novitiate, and profession
Daily and seasonal practices of simplicity, justice, and joy
A rich spiritual reading list and journaling prompts
Prayers, blessings, and a trauma-informed theology of becoming
Whether you’re discerning your first step or ready to take your vow, this guide will walk with you on the journey of radical love.
You are welcome. You are needed. You are becoming.
Who is Jesus when seen through the eyes of the poor, the queer, and the crucified?
A Clarean Christology offers a bold and liberating vision of Jesus Christ as the companion of the outcast, the breaker of empire, and the embodiment of radical love. Drawing from queer theology, liberation theology, Franciscan spirituality, and progressive Christian universalism, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, presents a Christ who does not conform to empire or patriarchy but subverts them from below.
In this deeply theological and unapologetically political work, readers will encounter:
Jesus the Poor: born under occupation, living without wealth, and aligned with the marginalized.
Jesus the Queer: transgressing social and gender norms, embracing chosen family, and revealing God in the rejected.
Jesus the Crucified: executed by empire, risen in defiance, and living still in every body bruised by oppression.
Jesus the Cosmic Christ: pulsing through creation, breathing through ecology, and calling us into sacred kinship with all beings.
This is not a sanitized Savior. This is the Christ of protest lines, drag liturgies, healing circles, mutual aid tables, and compost piles. This is the God who shows up wounded and still radiant.
Perfect for theologians, activists, spiritual seekers, and communities on the margins, A Clarean Christology is both a profound theological exploration and a rallying cry to follow Jesus with courage, compassion, and revolutionary tenderness.
Are you torn between your love for Jesus and your call to magic? Do you long for a spirituality that embraces herbs and holy water, tarot and psalms, candles and crosses?
In The Sacred Spiral, Sister Abigail Hester—queer nun, mystic, and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—guides you on a groundbreaking journey into the heart of Christian witchcraft. With fierce love and spiritual depth, this book offers a powerful fusion of progressive theology, sacred ritual, and everyday magic for those who walk between worlds.
You’ll discover:
A clear theological defense of Christian witchcraft
Daily practices, rituals, spells, and prayers
Sacred tools and altars for the modern mystic
The Wheel of the Year woven with the life of Christ
Divination, herbal healing, and spellwork for justice
A blueprint for becoming the witch God made you to be
Whether you’re a seasoned practitioner or a curious seeker, this book is a holy permission slip to live your faith fully—mystical, magical, and radically Christian.
Loving Boldly, Living Simply, Belonging Deeply is a spiritual manifesto for the misfits, the mystics, and the marginalized. In this beautiful and bold guide, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, weaves together queer theology, Franciscan spirituality, and radical love to form the foundation of the Franciscan Clarean Way—a modern monastic movement rooted in justice, tenderness, and holy resistance.
Whether you’re a deconstructing Christian, a trans seeker, a spiritual wanderer, or a contemplative activist, this book offers you a place to belong. Through daily rhythms, sacred practices, vows, symbols, and prophetic reflections, Sister Abigail invites readers to a life of intentional simplicity, fierce compassion, and deep community.
Includes:
A liberating Rule of Life for modern seekers
Queer and Franciscan commentary on the Gospel of Mark
Daily prayer templates and rituals
Practical tools for building a justice-rooted spiritual life
Blessings, appendices, and affirming resources for the journey ahead
This is more than a book—it’s a belonging.
Come as you are. Come home.
What if evolution is not a threat to faith—but its most sacred unfolding?
In this groundbreaking and beautifully written work, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—a queer, disabled, trans nun and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—reclaims the creation story as a dance of justice, diversity, and divine transformation. Drawing from queer theology, Franciscan spirituality, Indigenous wisdom, process thought, and ecological justice, Sacred Origins boldly reimagines the false war between science and Scripture.
From Genesis to Darwin, from trauma to transfiguration, from extinction to resurrection, this book invites readers into a new cosmic story—one that honors the Earth, embraces the beauty of becoming, and affirms every body as a reflection of the ever-evolving image of God.
Perfect for spiritual seekers, progressive Christians, science lovers, and those wounded by religious fundamentalism, this is a creation story for our time.
You are not a mistake. You are part of the sacred story. And that story is still unfolding.
The Queer Franciscan Clarean Guide to Ethical AI: Blessing the Code, Breaking the Empire
By Sister Abigail Hester, OFC
The future isn’t neutral—it’s being written in code right now. Algorithms are shaping justice, dignity, and survival. If the Church stays silent, empire will speak in its place.
This is not your standard “ethics in tech” handbook. This is a prophetic manifesto from the digital margins, written by a queer nun who believes holiness can live in the code and that Jesus would absolutely join an open-source rebellion for liberation.
Drawing from the radical spirit of St. Francis and St. Clare of Assisi, Sister Abigail Hester invites you to bless servers, debug injustice, and design technology that heals rather than harms. In these pages you’ll find:
A Theology of the Circuit Board: what Silicon has to do with Sinai and why algorithms are part of creation’s story.
A grounded, gospel-rooted primer on the Singularity—without the sci-fi panic or techno-utopian hype.
Ten Commandments of Ethical AI—portable, prophetic, and printable for chapels, hackathons, or Congressional hearings.
Practical frameworks for building holy machines rooted in justice, transparency, and love.
TechnoDiscernment practices for deciding when to build, when to resist, and when to just unplug.
Liturgies and blessings for a digital age—because even algorithms need anointing oil sometimes.
Strategies for resistance and reprogramming when systems are already soaked in oppression.
This is a call to prophets, mystics, coders, pastors, and holy troublemakers to join in shaping a tech future worthy of the Gospel. You don’t need a computer science degree to take part—only a conscience, a community, and the courage to say:
“This tech does not honor the Gospel—so let’s build something that does.”
Whether you’re debugging code or dismantling empires, this guide will help you do it with faith, clarity, and fire. The kingdom of heaven may be decentralized, but the Spirit is already flowing through the fiber.
Bless the code. Break the mold. Let the servers serve the sacred.
Walking the Way of Healing is a sacred and practical guide for those called to serve as Kilubansa Healing Ministers—earth-based healers rooted in the elemental wisdom of Diwata spirituality, Indigenous Filipino traditions, and contemplative Christian practice.
Written by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, a Franciscan Clarean nun and spiritual healer, this manual blends ancestral reverence, herbal medicine, ritual leadership, and ethical ministry into one cohesive path of transformation. Whether you are just beginning your journey or seeking deeper training and initiation, this book provides:
Elemental practices and daily spiritual disciplines
Herbal wisdom from sacred plants like guava, lagundi, and pandan
Ritual outlines for healing, grief, protection, and blessing
Energy healing tools rooted in ancestral connection
Guidance for creating a sustainable, justice-centered ministry
Reflections on the blessing and burden of sacred service
Prayers, chants, and meditations for daily use
Rooted in humility, honor, and healing, this is more than a training book—it is a spiritual companion for those who walk between worlds and serve the broken with tenderness.
Includes a recommended training pathway through Luntiang Aghama Natural Divine Arts Shrine of Healing Inc.
Kilubansa Healing is your practical, grounded, and spirit-led guide to walking the path of the Manggagamot—a sacred healing practitioner rooted in Indigenous Filipino-inspired wisdom. Authored by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, a Franciscan Clarean nun and certified Kilubansa Healing Minister, this book offers rituals, herbal insights, elemental practices, and daily tools for restoring sacred balance in body, mind, and spirit.
Rooted in the elemental teachings of Kilubansa, this guidebook blends earth-based spirituality, natural health practices, and Franciscan compassion into a healing tradition that honors both ancient roots and modern bodies. Whether you are a caregiver, herbalist, spiritual seeker, or someone living with chronic conditions or disabilities, this book welcomes you with open arms.
🌿 What You’ll Find Inside:
Rituals and blessings for healing with Air, Fire, Water, and Earth
Herbal and natural health remedies for common ailments
Sacred tools for building your own Kilubansa healing kit
Prayers, affirmations, and practices rooted in Indigenous wisdom
Guidance for living simply, respectfully, and interdependently
This is more than a manual—it is a movement of healing, humility, and harmony.
Sacred Balance is a deeply personal and transformative exploration of Indigenous Filipino-inspired healing through the teachings of Kilubansa, a powerful Diwata spirit guide. Written by Sister Abigail Hester, a Franciscan Clarean nun and trained Kilubansa Healing Minister, this groundbreaking book invites readers into a sacred path of elemental harmony, spiritual wisdom, and embodied wellness.
Drawing from the teachings of Kilubansa and her own contemplative Christian path, Sister Abigail reveals how healing begins when we realign with the sacred rhythms of nature, the elements, and the divine spark within. Blending indigenous spirituality, natural wellness, and Franciscan compassion, this book introduces the foundational philosophy of Filipino Alchemy and Geomancy—a sacred way of reading and restoring balance to our inner and outer worlds.
Whether you’re a seeker, healer, or spiritual companion, this book is your guide to walking the path of the Manggagamot with humility, grace, and firelight.
🌿 Inside You’ll Discover:
The four sacred elements and how to balance them
The wisdom of Kilubansa and the Diwatas
How to live simply, naturally, and spiritually attuned
Franciscan Clarean reflections on healing and wholeness
A path forward for spiritual seekers from all backgrounds.
🌲 Survival is sacred. Simplicity is resistance. The woods are calling—come home.
In a world of climate chaos, digital overload, and spiritual fatigue, Sacred Survival offers a radical return to what matters. Part bushcraft manual, part spiritual guidebook, this groundbreaking work invites you into the wild—not just to survive, but to belong.
Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—Franciscan nun, queer theologian, and nature-based healer—blends practical skills with profound soul wisdom. Learn how to build fire, forage wild foods, navigate without a GPS, and craft your own sacred shelter, all while reclaiming your connection to Earth, community, and the Divine.
With compassion, clarity, and courage, this book reimagines bushcraft for:
Disabled and neurodivergent wilderness wanderers
Queer and trans folks seeking safety and spiritual refuge
Climate-conscious seekers and off-grid dreamers
What happens when the world falls apart—and you follow Jesus anyway?
In this bold, raw, and radically hopeful book, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, invites readers on a journey through collapse, community, and holy survival. Blending Franciscan spirituality with practical prepping, nomadic simplicity, and social justice, A Nun with a Backpack offers a field guide for those seeking God beyond the walls of comfort and control.
Drawing on the legacy of Saint Francis and Saint Clare, this is a gospel for exiles: the unhoused, the grieving, the queer, the disabled, the caregivers, the climate-struck, and the empire-weary. Each chapter is both deeply spiritual and sharply grounded—with prayers, packing lists, survival strategies, and reflections on how to live with nothing but faith and a backpack.
This book is not about fear.
It’s about freedom.
Not about hoarding.
But holy readiness.
Not about escapism.
But radical presence in a breaking world.
Whether you live in a tent, a monastery, or the backseat of your car, this book will meet you on the road—and walk with you toward a simpler, braver, more Christlike life.
Carry light. Walk bold. Love fierce. The Way is calling.
Healing is not a luxury—it’s a birthright.
In Thomsonian Herbalism: A Return to Nature’s Medicine Cabinet, Sister Abigail Hester, CNC, invites readers on a journey back to the radical, earthy wisdom of Samuel Thomson—a 19th-century herbalist who taught that every person could be their own healer using the simple gifts of the Earth.
Blending herbal knowledge, social justice, and Franciscan spirituality, this book is both a practical guide and a sacred manifesto. You’ll learn about warming herbs like cayenne and ginger, simple home remedies, spiritual rituals for healing, and the power of herbalism as resistance for the poor, the disabled, the queer, and the forgotten.
Whether you’re living in a farmhouse or a tent, starting your herbal journey or deepening your ancestral practice, this book will equip you with the tools—and the fire—to heal yourself and your community.
Accessible. Revolutionary. Holy.
This is herbalism for the people.
What if prepping wasn’t about fear—but about love? What if your bug-out bag became a blessing bag?
In Holy Readiness, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, offers a radical and refreshing guide to preparedness rooted not in paranoia, but in Franciscan peace, Clarean simplicity, and sacred mutual aid. Drawing from the lives of St. Francis and St. Clare of Assisi, this book reimagines prepping as a spiritual path—one that prioritizes compassion over hoarding, community over isolation, and holy resilience over survivalist anxiety.
With chapters on everyday carry (EDC), sacred bug-out bags, herbal wisdom, mutual aid, minimalist spirituality, and joyful resistance, this practical and prophetic guide speaks to our times of ecological, economic, and spiritual crisis.
Whether you’re packing a haversack or a prayer pouch, tending a garden or blessing your shelter, Holy Readiness will inspire you to prepare not just your hands—but your heart.
Pack light. Walk gently. Burn brightly. The world is waiting.
The OFC Prayer Book is a groundbreaking spiritual companion for queer, trans, feminist, disabled, and justice-seeking people of faith. Rooted in the radical simplicity of Francis and Clare, and infused with the fire of liberation and queer theology, this book offers daily rhythms of prayer, powerful rituals of blessing and resistance, and a living calendar of saints you won’t find in stained glass.
This is not your grandmother’s prayer book. It is a holy reclamation of sacred space for the marginalized. Here, you’ll find:
🌅 Daily prayers that rise with the sun and rest in divine belovedness
🏳️⚧️ Blessings for gender transitions, name changes, and trans joy
🕊️ Prayers of protest, lament, and collective liberation
🌿 Herbal rituals for healing, embodiment, and connection to Earth
✨ Queer, trans, and feminist saints who walk beside us in the struggle
📅 A liturgical calendar that honors justice movements and holy resistance
Created by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—a transgender nun and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—this book blends contemplation with activism, prayer with protest, and sacred tradition with wild, queer creativity. Whether you’re lighting a candle in your kitchen, gathering for protest, or whispering a blessing over your hormone vial, this book is here to remind you: you are sacred. your body is holy. your life is a prayer.
The OFC Community Life Handbook is a bold and compassionate guide to building intentional Christian community rooted in radical love, mutual care, and sacred simplicity. Authored by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans, this transformative resource offers a liberating alternative to hierarchy, domination, and institutional religion.
Blending queer theology, Franciscan spirituality, and the lived wisdom of marginalized people, this handbook explores:
Non-hierarchical governance and shared leadership
Consensus-based decision-making as a sacred practice
Rhythms of prayer, rest, justice, and mutual aid
Conflict transformation rooted in love and accountability
Rituals of belonging, initiation, and spiritual commitment
Living out our faith as public witness and prophetic resistance
Whether you are building a spiritual collective, dreaming of intentional community, or seeking tools for just and joyful group life, this handbook is a powerful companion.
More than a manual—it’s a map to a new way of being. Come as you are. Leave with a vision.
What if the wrath of God was not something to fear—but something to hope for?
Too often dismissed as a relic of divine anger, the book of Nahum is actually a powerful poetic takedown of empire, exploitation, and systemic violence. Through the lens of queer theology, liberation theology, and Franciscan spirituality, Sister Abigail brings Nahum into the modern age—where Assyria still rules in the form of white supremacy, transphobia, Christian nationalism, and extractive capitalism.
In this bold and unflinching commentary, Nahum: A Prophetic Cry Against Empire, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, reclaims one of the Bible’s most incendiary texts as a rallying cry for justice, liberation, and holy resistance.
This commentary is:
A theological exposé of power and propaganda,
A survival guide for the oppressed,
And a sacred liturgy of rage and restoration.
With verse-by-verse insights, reflection prompts, prophetic sidebars, and trauma-informed compassion, this book speaks directly to:
Activists and organizers,
Exvangelicals and outcasts,
LGBTQ+ Christians,
And anyone who’s ever asked, “Whose side is God really on?”
The answer, according to Nahum, is clear:
God is not neutral. God is against empire. And God is with us.
What would our world look like if Jesus stepped into the White House?
Not the sanitized, suburban Jesus of patriotic folklore—but the real Jesus: a brown-skinned, barefoot healer from the margins. A radical peacemaker. A table-flipping liberator. A lover of the poor, the sick, the queer, the disabled, and the forgotten.
In this bold, prophetic work of political theology, Sister Abigail Hester—transgender nun, Franciscan visionary, and theologian of the underside—imagines a revolutionary presidency grounded in the teachings of Jesus. Each chapter reclaims a national issue through the lens of the Gospel: from abolishing prisons and policing, to healing the earth, to centering queer and disabled bodies in public policy.
Drawing on the spiritual legacies of St. Francis and St. Clare, as well as queer theology, liberation theology, and Christian universalism, this book is both a fierce critique of empire and a tender invitation to reimagine leadership as love in action.
This is not a fantasy. It’s a roadmap to the kin-dom.
And the first step is asking: What if we lived like Jesus already was president?
In a world that rushes to medicate and forgets to pause, A Franciscan Clarean Guide to Herbal First Aid offers a sacred alternative: healing that is slow, simple, and deeply rooted in love.
Blending traditional herbal wisdom with the compassionate spirituality of Saint Francis and Saint Clare, Sister Abigail Hester—transgender nun, herbalist, and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—offers a holistic guide for everyday emergencies. From cuts and fevers to grief and anxiety, this book teaches you how to build your own herbal first aid kit, care for your body with natural remedies, and restore your spirit through sacred ritual.
Whether you’re a beginner herbalist, a caregiver, a mutual aid organizer, or simply someone seeking peace in a chaotic world, this book is your companion for healing with heart, herbs, and holiness.
✨ Includes:
Over a dozen chapters of plant-based remedies
Franciscan prayers and rituals for each situation
Recipes, compresses, salves, teas, and tinctures
Tips for children’s care and community mutual aid
Reflections for healing trauma and reclaiming your sacred body
Because healing is not just physical. It’s spiritual. It’s communal. It’s holy.
What if your littleness wasn’t something to hide—but something holy?
In Cradle of Grace: A Theology of Age Regression, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—a transgender nun and age regressor—offers a groundbreaking, tender, and deeply spiritual exploration of what it means to be small in the arms of a loving God.
Blending queer theology, trauma-informed care, Franciscan spirituality, and lived experience, this book affirms age regression not as weakness, but as sacred wisdom. Whether you regress by choice, in response to trauma, or as part of your neurodivergent identity, you are seen, held, and beloved.
Through Scripture, theology, prayer, ritual, and storytelling, Cradle of Grace invites readers into:
A Jesus who welcomes the little ones
A God who rocks, feeds, and carries us
A spirituality that honors softness, need, and childlike wonder
A theology that blesses blankies, stuffies, and regression as worship
Written for littles, caregivers, pastors, and anyone seeking a more inclusive, tender, and liberating faith, this book is a sanctuary for the sacred small self. If you’ve ever longed for a place where your regression is safe, spiritual, and celebrated—this is your cradle.
You are not alone.
You are not broken.
You are cradled in grace.
“When I Feel Small” is a gentle, groundbreaking guide for anyone who experiences involuntary age regression—and for those who love, care for, or seek to understand them. With raw honesty and tender wisdom, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—a queer Christian nun, trauma survivor, and spiritual caregiver—invites readers into a compassionate journey of self-understanding, healing, and sacred softness.
Blending trauma-informed insight, psychological grounding, and spiritual depth, this book explores what it means to regress without warning, to feel helpless and young inside an adult body, and to make peace with the child within. It offers practical tools for grounding, soothing, and integration; spiritual reflections rooted in the teachings of Jesus, St. Francis, and St. Clare; and a powerful message of belonging for those who feel too “much,” too “needy,” or too “broken” to be loved.
This book is not about fixing you—it’s about welcoming every part of you home. Especially the small, scared parts that have been carrying your pain.
Topics Include:
What involuntary age regression is (and isn’t)
Trauma, neurodivergence, and emotional triggers
Creating a safe life for your inner child
Grounding and self-soothing practices
Support systems, caregiving dynamics, and faith-based healing
The sacredness of the regressed self in spiritual life
For survivors. For seekers. For the small, sacred self within us all.
🌿 Balance. Simplicity. Wholeness. 🌿
Are you overwhelmed by fad diets, wellness noise, and one-size-fits-all advice?
Do you long for a sustainable, compassionate path to health that honors your real life?
The Table of Success offers a fresh, grounded approach to natural health and wellness built on four essential legs:
Motivation • Fuel • Exercise • Rest & Stress Management
In this practical and empowering guide, Abigail Hester, Certified Nutritional Consultant, leads you through a holistic framework designed to nourish your body, mind, and spirit—without shame, extremes, or perfectionism.
Inside, you’ll discover:
Tools to build lasting motivation rooted in self-compassion
Whole-food guidance and gentle herbal support
Joyful movement practices for all bodies and abilities
Rest rituals, stress relief strategies, and nervous system care
Worksheets, affirmations, monthly check-ins, and more
Whether you’re beginning your wellness journey or returning after burnout, The Table of Success will help you create a life of balance, rhythm, and care—one small act at a time.
Pull up a chair. Your healing starts here.
Queer Francis and Trans Clare: Theology at the Margins is a bold and tender reclamation of Franciscan spirituality for our time—written for those who live, love, and believe at the edges of church and society. With prophetic fire and pastoral compassion, Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—queer nun, theologian, and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—invites readers into a deeply embodied theology rooted in the lives of Saint Francis and Saint Clare of Assisi.
Drawing from queer, trans, feminist, and liberation theologies, this groundbreaking book queers the lives of Francis and Clare, reframing them not as safe saints of a sanitized tradition, but as radical mystics of holy resistance. Through lyrical storytelling, rigorous theology, and spiritual depth, Sister Abigail explores:
Francis’s kiss of the leper as a queer conversion
Clare’s refusal of marriage as feminist resistance
A Franciscan ecotheology for a burning planet
Queer kinship, chosen family, and radical belonging
The sacraments reimagined through trans bodies and queer joy
Sacred disobedience, decolonization, and the prophetic imagination
This book is not a retreat from reality—it is a call to live fiercely within it, with the humility of barefoot saints and the courage of trans prophets. It is a love letter to those who’ve been cast out by the church and a spiritual roadmap for building a faith that liberates, heals, and transforms.
Whether you are a theology student, spiritual seeker, religious outcast, or devoted contemplative, Queer Francis and Trans Clare will speak to your soul and stir your sacred longing for a church—and a world—where everyone belongs.
Sacred Simplicity: Economics, Ecology, and the Franciscan Clarean Way
By Sister Abigail Hester
In a world driven by profit, plagued by ecological collapse, and drowning in consumer excess, Sacred Simplicity offers a bold, Franciscan Clarean vision of resistance, healing, and hope. Sister Abigail Hester, OFC—nun, activist, and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans—delivers a radical critique of capitalism, climate injustice, and the commodification of the human soul.
Rooted in liberation theology, queer spirituality, and the wisdom of Saints Francis and Clare of Assisi, this book reclaims simplicity as sacred, not sterile—alive with justice, joy, and community. From economic alternatives like mutual aid and Jubilee to spiritual practices of rest, embodiment, and ecological reverence, Sacred Simplicity is both a manifesto and a guidebook for living light in a world that consumes.
Whether you are a spiritual seeker, an eco-activist, a queer Christian, or a weary soul searching for another way, this book invites you to reimagine salvation—not as escape, but as everyday resistance. The new world is already blooming. Will you walk the Clarean Way?
Little Girl, Arise: A Transgender Christian Manifesto is a bold, prophetic, and deeply pastoral declaration of faith, justice, and sacred identity. Written by Sister Abigail Hester, OFC, a transgender Christian nun and founder of the Order of Franciscan Clareans, this book reclaims the Gospel as good news for the marginalized—especially transgender and gender-expansive people who have been cast out by religion.
Through scripture, theology, personal testimony, and liturgical reflection, Sister Abigail confronts the weaponization of the Bible, challenges cisnormative dogma, and joyfully proclaims that trans lives are not a sin or a scandal—they are a sign of resurrection. This manifesto blends queer and liberation theologies with Franciscan spirituality, calling the Church to repentance, the faithful to action, and the exiled to rise.
With chapters on clobber passages, Jesus’ radical inclusivity, the holiness of trans bodies, and the creation of affirming communities, this is more than a book—it’s a lifeline, a call to arms, and a prayer for a better world.
If you’ve ever been told you don’t belong in the Church—this book tells you the truth:
🌈 You are beloved. You are holy. You are already home.
Casting Out Empire
Exorcism and Resistance in the Way of Jesus
Expanded Edition, 2025 · by the Order of Franciscan Clareans
What if exorcism wasn’t about fear—but about freedom?
In this bold and prophetic book, the Order of Franciscan Clareans reclaims the ancient practice of exorcism as a sacred act of resistance against empire, injustice, and oppression. Rooted in the liberating way of Jesus, Casting Out Empire challenges readers to see demons not as mythical monsters, but as real-world systems of harm: white supremacy, capitalism, religious nationalism, environmental destruction, and anti-trans violence.
Combining queer theology, liberation spirituality, Franciscan wisdom, and contemporary activism, this expanded edition offers prayers, rituals, and radical reflections for communities longing to embody love, justice, and holy defiance.
Inside you’ll find:
A powerful reinterpretation of exorcism as liberation
Scriptural analysis, theological insight, and spiritual tools
Prayers and liturgies of resistance
A glossary, reading list, and activist resource guide
This is not just a book. It’s a call to cast out empire—starting with your own heart, your community, and the world we are co-creating.
Sister Abigail Hester 